notarealstate

"Well, of course I wondered, but it was like-- It was short lived, I would be like 'what am I thinking' and then just go back to other stuff. Masturbating was a whole other deal, too, it was like...Trying to figure out whether I was broken, or to simply feel good by myself without having to be good at doing anything or good enough for anyone, really. Mostly, it's stress relief. But..."

He gets very embarrassed all of a sudden as if he Hawaii didn't just have sex.

"I did it thinking of you, sometimes..."