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[notarealstate]

Hawaii had reassured him that it wasn't 'a disaster', but the fact that they had to stop because it was too painful kind of made it so that now trying to face it again would be more...Well, intimidating for Rico, and possibily more frustrating for Hawaii himself though he'd never admit it.

Rico assumes that they will keep being friends and discuss what happened in a way that hopefully didn't make it worse. The tarot reading Rico gave himself said they were gonna be okay, so...

"Hello." Rico sits next to Hawaii at dinner. "How did the mission go?"

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[imbringingsexyhack]

"Fuck!" he wasn't expecting it, and he's overwhelmed.

He's shaking by now, but he wants Rico to finish before they can both relax.

[notarealstate]

For a moment, he digs his nails in Hawaii's thighs, but it doesn't really do anything in terms of duration as he inevitably lets go of everything and collapses with a loud, prolonged moan. He had never thought he would ever cum inside anyone, but fuck, it felt great. Especially since this with a person he loves so much.

[imbringingsexyhack]

He's tired, but happy that Rico got to try this.

He sigh with relief when he feels that he's done, too, and collapses on the bed as he catches his breath.

"Holy shit" he lets out, almost inaudible.
He's overstimulated, but he's okay now that he knows he just has to wait for Rico to pull out.

[notarealstate]

Rico lays to the side, panting heavily. He can't really speak right now to ask if everything is fine, but looks for Hawaii's hand with own, brushing it gently.

[imbringingsexyhack]

Part of him wants to get uo amd cleaned, but he's too tired to do so. He rolls on his side to smile at Rico, and places a kiss on his cheek.

"how was that?" he asks.

[notarealstate]

"It was great."

He rests his head on Hawaii's shoulder.

"Thank you, I'm glad I got to--" he interrupts himself with more panting "do this with you."

[imbringingsexyhack]

"yknow, your dick is definitely something" he chuckles.

He gibes him another kiss, tgen closed his eyes.
"Also, i liked seeing you having your fun with the dirty talo and all of that"

[notarealstate]

"Do you actually think that or are you saying it just to encourage me?"

Rico chuckles as well, in a more self deprecating manner. He's not really good at anything, much less at sex of all things.

[imbringingsexyhack]

"I mean that!" he wants to sound offended, yet he can't help but laugh.

He hugs Rico, not caring anymore about trying to keep them as clean as possible. They both needed a shower anyway.

"You do learn fast. I can't wait to do this again"

[notarealstate]

"Hopefully we have plenty of time."

He takes in a deep breath and then muses.

"Man, this place sucks, but at least we get to be together."

[imbringingsexyhack]

"Skip over the depression and just kiss me"
He leans in before Rico can even answer.

"I don't want to think about hiw bad this can go. Better to focus on hiw it's going right now"

[notarealstate]

Rico complies gladly.

"Yeah. You're right."

[imbringingsexyhack]

"Are you okay?" he asks, mostky to make sure.

[notarealstate]

"Yeah." Rico idly caresses Hawaii's abs "You?"

[imbringingsexyhack]

"I'm good" he smiles at Rico.
"It was a bit too much around the end, but nothing I can't handle"

He thinks about it for a bit.
"I wasn't expecting you to bite me"

[notarealstate]

"Heh, I didn't expect that either." he's a bit embarrassed "I'm sorry, did I hurt you?"

He feels dumb in asking because he doesn't think Hawaii hasn't been fucked harder or by someone bigger, and he was prepared, so that's odd to hear.

[imbringingsexyhack]

"I'm fine. It's that I wasn't expecting it to come from you" he explains.

"Last time i asked you to bite me, you just kinda.. Nibbled a bit? I don't know, I thought you found it weird or something" he shrugs.

Sure, things had changed ever since that time.
"mh" he pauses, "Should I keep my mind open for more stuff?"

[notarealstate]

"Yeah, I mean, I was...I didn't want to hurt you or do it wrong." he blushes a bit "This time I did it without thinking."

He gets thoughtful at that last question.

"I...Guess? I don't know, you're the one that knows more about this stuff."

[imbringingsexyhack]

"It's... More of a mindset, really. Before now I kinda assumed that sex is a forbidden topic to you and that you simply didn't do it. Like, at all"

He guesses to be correct, in some measure.

"I'm not saying it's a bad thing, but seeing you take initiative is exciting. I like it, but I'm still afraid of making you uncomfortable, so... Those two ideas of you kind of clash"

[notarealstate]

"See, it's...Complicated. How do I even explain?"

He curls his mouth a bit.

"Sometimes people are aesthetically nice to me, like you would like a painting or a statue, but I never really look at someone and think that I wanna have sex with them? That's not the kind of attraction I feel."

He gets a bit sadder thinking about how sex is a forbidden topic, because in some way that does resonate.

"But yeah. Sex, regardless of attraction, is...Weird. I've always felt like it was an 'other people' thing, maybe because others seems to have a different relationship with...Well, everything, compared to me."

Man, is he going on a tangent now?

"...But I like doing it with you."

[imbringingsexyhack]

"It does sound complicated" he mumbles.

"For me things have always been straightforward. But I guess sex is more a matter of curiosity, almost?"

He never stopped to contemplate things under such light. He did feel attracted to people, sexually speaking, but what he felt for Rico was completely different.

"Like... I don't know, I wonder what people look like naked a lot, just to name one. And if I like that image it's not that hard to start wondering how they're in bed. I like to try nee things because I always want to know how it feels. Are you really telling me you've never wondered how it would feel to have sex with anyone?"

[notarealstate]

"Well, of course I wondered, but it was like-- It was short lived, I would be like 'what am I thinking' and then just go back to other stuff. Masturbating was a whole other deal, too, it was like...Trying to figure out whether I was broken, or to simply feel good by myself without having to be good at doing anything or good enough for anyone, really. Mostly, it's stress relief. But..."

He gets very embarrassed all of a sudden as if he Hawaii didn't just have sex.

"I did it thinking of you, sometimes..."

[imbringingsexyhack]

He doesn't know how to react to the information, especially in this context. I mean, it makes sense, but there's so much to address in what Rico just said that he doesn't know how to properly discuss it.

So he begins with a gentle squeeze, while also stroking Rico's back to let him know he's okay with that.

"I mean... I didn't even know you masturbated until I saw you doing it" he admits too.
"And now you tell me this after we..." he doesn't finish, saying out loud would ruin the mood.

He's starting to feel warm and fuzzy, as well as sleepy.
"I mean... There's so much of you I have to understand. And I'm fine with that. It makes you even more special" he smiles, and brushes some hair away from Rico's face.

[notarealstate]

"Uh. Yeah, I guess."

He laughs awkwardly.

"I don't like being special. I'd rather be like everyone else."

[imbringingsexyhack]

"I don't want you to be like anyone else"
Does this sound bad?

"Like, I mean, I get what you're trying to say. But I've never felt like this for anyone else, and I'm afraid that saying you're like them means you'll just get tired of me, eventually"
He sighs.

"I know you're not like that, but... I told you, a lot of people had sex with me just as an experiment, and I was fine with that because I didn't feel this way toward them. Sometimes I think I could be nothing more than an experiment to you too, and although I know that isn't true, it bothers me"